Talent

Today I went to go get my paycheck, and after I did that I went to Wal-Mart. I got an art portfolio case for all of my single paper drawings. I also bought another case just like it, only it is shorter and wider. It is for things later on in the future, something I thought I would desperately need in order to stay organized as I so love to be. The things that go into it are your taxes, insurances, personal, medical, and that other jazzy stuff that seems to make us bone dry out of money every time we get a paycheck. Thank goodness for me I dont have to live in all of that right now, in a year maybe. All I know is, is that I am trying to better prepare myself for the terror that is ahead! So yeah Christmas was good I didnt really want anything this year, maybe it was because I said over and over I didnt want anything. Next year I'll list a whole bunch of things and hope they dont get me anything. I have been really picking up on my drawing hopeing to get better and better. It is like that scripture were the two guys were given their talents and in return they developed more talents on their own by practicing them. I just got a picture from Kattie of the kids (Brianna, Xander, and Anabella)! Oh yeah my mom bought this old tv show series that I like so much (Petticoat Junction) it is awesome. Have a Happy New Year! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Finally! All Done!!

I wrapped the last present and I am relieved one thing I dont have to do anymore! Now it is just giving it to them on Christmas Day, and hoping they like it, maybe even love it. Who knows? Today the Y.W., the Primary, the Priesthood, and the Choir sang today in church. When we did that church felt like it went by a little faster, maybe because I was apart of it. I have to work tomorrow from 1:30pm - 9:00pm. 7 and a half hours. I am exhausted and I need to be getting to bed so, ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Drawing, Work, and Missionaries!

I am getting to know my fellow coworkers a little more better by the day! There is this lady there her name is Jodi, I told her that, that name doesnt suit her just right, so I gave her a nickname and it is JoJo. She laughed and from then on we talked forever on the subject of nicknames and how we got ours. I am drawing this picture for Courtney she is the most sweetest thing in the world! I am drawing Tweety playing Soccer that is her fave sport. I hope she likes it, I like it so far?! I wont be able to block with Matt Warr, and it is really funny actually cause he wants me to block with him and bag for him at the register. but our schedules dont really comprehend really well. Matt Folker is wondering why I dont text him any more, first of all he has a girlfriend and his girlfriend is my boss, and I am not messing with fire. Tyler keeps on trying to scare me at work, and he succeeds everytime, I am going to get a heart attack soon if he keeps it up. There is this other guy there that just poured out his problems on me saying he doent like this guys remarks. I told him just to ignore him, or to try to ignore him. I feel like I am being stalked at work cause I am normally the only girl my age that is there. Atleast they make things easy for me most of the time when that happens. Oh my goodness from the Leesburg Ward there is this missionary Montana Carroll he is so cute I mailed him and he mailed me back with a whole bunch of questions. Being so willing to answer them I sent another letter to him and answering them all with the date on the letter seeing how long it takes to get a letter from where he is. And it takes along time. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

It began with a text

Melissa text me or I think she did at 4:45 in the morning saying are you at work? I wrote back "at 4:45am?" Since I went to bed at like 7:00 last night I was wide awake! After that it just hit me would I give up my life for my Savior. People without thought would say yes, but I got really into depth with that question like if I was held hostage, and they were threatening to kill me because of my religion what would I do? Or if I were to save someones life, by giving up my life to someone that I dont know or to someone that I may even dispise? And I'm just thinking He did it for me I should do it for other people without hesitation. Well I have to get ready for work. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Only hope

It is so weird tonight this guy from my work that I know Matthew I think his last name is Warren, told me his goal now is to promise until the day he dies is to try to block with me, at work. He is so funny! I have lost 31 lbs. and is at a size 35 in. waist. I am so close to my goal size I can just literally feel it. Work was fun today, I did a good job on bagging and everything cause of my prayers being answered. Hopeing to do a good job at work. Mom and I are preparing for girls camp since she is so surprisingly the camp leader this year for the Leesburg Ward girls and our color is still Yellow. I'll learn to love it, it is kind of growing on me. Bailey is spoiled more than ever I never expected my mom to buy my dog clothes! Sunny is still an annoying alarm that you just cant shut off in the morning or ever really. I bought a new calendar for the new year it is one of the small ones from Target, I got a Princess one you know the calendar has to match my personality. Oh guess what I know what to call Sister Rotti for girls camp if she doesnt have a name yet it is going to be "Sweet Pea". The funny thing is I dont even have one yet I want the Eustis girls to name me though cause I have known them longer and they are more family to me than anyone I know. Hopeing it being my last year they will let the Eustis girls name me but I doubt it. I can only hope. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Bought somethings

Today I went to the mall to get presents for the family (Emily and Sarah). I have lost 30 lbs. and I probably gained a pound cause what I have eaten today. Tomorrow I work from 11:00am - 7:00pm. I am going to be so exhausted tomorrow, I can just feel it now. I am watching the New World Movie and it is really cool in the begining it is really slow, but it does start to speed up a bit. We went to the Mall with Bass Pro Shop. I bought somethings that I thought I could never find. I bought a Tshirt and three necklaces (seahorse, alligator, and turtle)! The turtle is for Melissa! I never felt so friendless when I saw a picture of the Eustis Girls together all smiling looking like they are having a great time. Dont I wish I was there with them. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Out of energy

Sorry to say that writing on my blog is the last thing I've wanted to do for a while, because of my work and friends from work texting me at like 12:00 midnight. I just got word from my dad that if we move we will still be in Leesburg :(. We would just move into another area in Leesburg. My dad loves the ward alot, and I doubt he will change his mind about moving out of Leesburg. Christmas is coming soon and I still have to go Christmas shopping for the family, so I will be doing it tomorrow because I get payed and plus I have no work tomorrow. I just signed on for a death sentence at work. I put in more hours for me to work cause right now I am only working like 16 hours a week and that is below average for Publix. At least I made Lindsay (Front Service Assistant Manager) happy! Oh yeah I have now lost a total of 29 lbs. It doesnt show for me though. Today I am working 5:30pm - 9:00pm, I have to probably do chores tonight I hope I dont have to cause it takes me over an hour to do most of them. hopefully I just block. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Getting back to myself

Ever since September I have made a goal that would change my outward appearance. I am so proud of myself for the progress I have made I want to share it with others! I have lost from September to this day 26 lbs. and I have lost 5 and a half inches around my waist! I am losing more cause I am not to my original state yet. I am doing well in work made a whole bunch of friends finally. I am more friends with the older people than with the younger. Church is going good I guess, everyone interupts the leaders in there lessons and everytime that they do that I have to tell them to be quiet, it is a hassle for me cause I want to hear what they are saying and they are being loud. I want to go so bad to a Eustis Wednesday activity I know I am not apart of the Ward anymore but I still want to be at one of the activities. After a while I do plan on moving back to Eustis, cause it is just so insane here and Eustis people I am used to. I am still drawing and singing! Thank goodness cause if I wasnt then I would be distressed more than I am right now. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Being like Him

I woke up so exhausted cause Matt F. was texting me until like 1:30 in the morning. I went to work today for only three hours it felt so short it being three hours and all, it only felt like an hour. When I got home I told my family of this lady that gave me this tip I used the loophole that Robert told me, you can take the tip if they ask you more than two times so after that I just exepted it, it would have been rude if I didnt after all that time. Then there was this guy outside and inside the Publix store he was homeless and drunk,they were making fun of him so I started to cry so hard inside hoping it wouldnt show on my outward appearance, I was praying for him to find help, and hope he will do okay on his journey through life. Its weird cause when people say things like its not hurting anybody there wrong it is hurting them and everyone around them. it just makes me so sad to see what the influences of Satan can do to innocent people including that man that was at Publix. like smoking drinking they have one thing in common, they are harming the kids, youth, and the adults of this generation, and it will always be that way unless we do something about it. That is why I am dedicating my life to the people out there in need of assistance. Publix is all what I can do right now for helping :(. I dont like it when people say they dont like or that they hate this person, I try all that I can to love everyone even the ones who despise me for no reason. You should always love them cause I figure it if we dont love each other Jesus and Heavenly Father dont have to, they can just say I dont like you and wont help you but they dont do that and they are my greatest examples. I got payed today! YAY! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Have Faith

Today was so busy! the good thing was that I was in a good mood (Didnt have to fake a smile)! I had to have so much faith if I didnt I would have been in big trouble! I cant wait till Thanksgiving that is were I will be able to meet my twin (my cousin Megan). I am so tired! I have met alot of nice people, all thanks to Matt. He got me to be more open towards other people! It feels so weird to be so open cause I am always so closed towards people. Cause being picked on as a child it scars you literally for life. Well I have to go but I'll blog soon! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Edward was so HOT

I finally went to go see Twilight with Sarah Evans, Mary-Megan, and another friend of Sarahs tonight at 7:45 and the thing was that I got off work at 7:00 so I was excited when I left work Matt probably thought I was insane. I am not going to say anything about the movie, but besides the fact that it was totally awesome! Including the part that Edward was so HOT, I am so going to be reading the books, and buying the movie when it comes out. Sarah, Mary-Megan, and I are going to be making Twilight teeshirts. I am so excited cause I am going to be putting up the pictures from the books on the shirt and it is going to have Edwards face right in the middle, My main project right now! But we are also going to be buying the real teeshirts if they do have them but I bet they do. When I was on the way to going home with the fam. I wouldnt shut up I said probably in one second like two or three words, my parents knew I was insane, my little sisters thought I was drugged. I didnt eat anything today so that was probably another reason that I went crazy, but I couldnt help it I actually saw Twilight! My grandma has been asking me for Christmas what do I want?, Twilight books! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Glad they know I'm Mormon

I went to Publix to go get my paycheck, and with my paycheck I bought an outfit for church, I hope you guys like it. But the one and most important thing I forgot to buy that wont let me catch an even bigger cold is an under long sleeve tee shirt for my uniform, I am going to freeze so you guys better like my outfit that I bought. I bought a top, skirt, jacket, and of course shoes! I got to sleep in today I felt so good when I woke up, I felt so good like you would never believe. Seminary was okay. My brothers kids were over today they are such brats Brian spoils them mad, so we get the bad end of the stick of that one. I am getting to know my fellow employees they are okay, it is so cool how they know that I am Mormon cause Matt he watches his language around me the others are getting there. And the other Matt is so nice, he makes things so easy for me and I am so gratefull for him. Luke is so nice too, he helps me on my bagging when we work together at the same station. Robert is so nice too, he jokes around and is an okay guy. Just recently I made windows from these huge boards, and they look okay expecailly using whiteout for paint (for the snow) they all said at first that they looked like clouds. I had to add an hour on my work time just to get the boards done, they kept on asking do you think that you will be able to get it done. I just kept on saying yes I will. And saying that I had two minutes to spare untill my shift ended. Well got to go. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Wildest Dreams

I hear that everyone is going to see Twilight, so that meens for me I am going to have to wait a week or so just to go see it. Cause I am not fighting the crowd just to see a hot...... dreamy.......... what am I talkin about of course Im gonna go see it to the man of my wildest dreams is going to be in the theatres the closest I will ever get to him. Ever since I saw him in Harry Potter I thought oh my gosh he is so cute wilder than my wildest dreams, so back off Hermione. I plan on buying the movie when it comes out but since it is a big hit it probably wont come out until a long time from now. So my lovely very cute vampire wait for me and I will see you soon, Oh you shall! I saw a trailer for the movie and that is what gave me that gigantor push to go see Edward Cullen. But do you know what is better than a HOT Vampire.................. A return missionary baby! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Smart or not smart you choose!

Today was so cool I actually answered a question that I think noone knew in Seminary I felt so smart for the first time in like forever! Just figuring out that we are having Thanksgiving at my house it is going to be insane, including having the cousins over. Tonight we were supposed to do our talent but I didnt do mine cause I wanted it to be a surprise for when we go to the retirement home center in Leesburg which it is like literally 3 min. from where we live.I will be singing The First Noel. I got 2nd place in this game where you have to keep your head down and when someone says heads up you have to look at someone and if they are starring at you and you are starring at them you have to hurry and clap your hands and if you are the first to clap your hands you stay in as the other that clapped right after you sits on the floor. It may sound complicated but really it is like one of the most easiest games in the world. Oh yeah the people at my work, they still do not have a vocabulary, cause almost every word they say is a curse word. They wonder why I am so quiet, I just dont want to screw up my goals for my future just by making friends with people who I shouldnt be making friends with, but the people who I work with in the morning are alright like jodi, Donna, Lindsey, and Robyn. Yeah I have to work tomorrow. WooHoo. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Kewl Kewl

I dont have work today kewl kewl! I am so close to getting my book done! All I need to do is get it illistrated hopefully by Brother Clayton, and published I am so excited working on it for I think almost two years. All what I have done is some of the people for my book, and of course the words to go along with it. I cant wait for everyone to see my book when it is done cause maybe it will probably explain some of my questionable past life experiences. But all what I wanted were my friends I know they are truly my friends cause if they werent they would have already of marked themselves off my list of frends. I just wish I could be with them right now. Right now my job is stressfull people buying bus loads of things for I dont even know what and they expect me to bag it up in under a minute or something they cant even do it so what makes them think I can? This lady Lola that I work with got on my case over something stupid, Matt the guy I work with he says that she finds things to argue about all the time, and plus he found it funny. There are some people there that can make me smile. While working there I have met some pretty interesting people. Angels - Devils, Giants - Dwarfs, Singles - Families. I am just so glad to be what I am, and I hope they are too! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

My book in the making

For like almost two years I have been making this book in fairytale of my life. The only thing I am going to be giving away is that there are fish, I wont say if they are alive or not ;), and a bunch of fruits and vegies! It may sound weird but it is my fairytale life. The cool thing is, is that I want brother Clayton to do the Illustration, I have already have drawn the characters, I just want him to put it into play for me. I still have no idea on what I am going to call it? This is the first time that I have publicly announced my book in the making but I hope to get done with it soon!

*Gator Family*

My brother his wife Renee, and daughter Emma haha she calls her Brylee but Emma is such a catchy name. Brian picked out Emma. Tyler wasnt with us tonight cause I think he was with his Grandma or something like that. We were talking on how the GATORS murdered Georgia Saturday. I didnt watch the game cause I was out and about but Kattie told me. When she called I heard them get another touch down I could tell cause Jeremy was screaming touch down, and so was little Bella. So young and they already got her to say touch down. Kattie got Nana, and Bubba to say that too around Bellas age. We are one big Gator Family! I know the Colleges I am finally going to. First I am going to lake Sumter for 2 years then right after that I am going to The University of Florida, I am so excited! Cant wait! My twin cousin Megan Smalt will I guess be going to FSU, when I heard that I am thinking oh no hope Grandma wont find out any time soon, she is the biggest Gator fan in the family and that is saying alot! I have to work tomorrow from 4:30pm - 10:00pm the longest I will yet be working in one day at publix. I am excited though I know I will do fine. My mom just came in oh my squash can you say depths of frustration. Just went to the Dentist today I finally got to see Sister Ingalls I was so hoping to see her there. She saw me when I was doing my X-rays, fun I know :(. G2G Seminary and work is tomorrow and I do not want to be feeling like I am carrying an elephant. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Not much Conversing :(

My Mom, Emily, Sarah, and I went to the church to set up the bake sale for tomorrow, Emily sarah, and I made advertisement boards to put up, to make it look a bit more brighter! the bake sale is for the YW to pay for some more camp items. So drew on the sides of the sign a canoe with paddles right next to it, and on the other side toilet paper. You YW know how important that toilet paper is to us, I thought it would have been funny to put it up. The YM are also doing a yard sale while we are doing the bake sale cool huh. I have to work tomorrow for three hours starting at 10:00am - 1:00pm. I am so excited but not for the other days cause i am going to have to stay afterwards and help clean and block the shelves so people can see the items on the next day. I only know how to do the bags and mats, and the PM cart (cleaning the bathrooms) except for the moping part Colton couldnt find it so now I am clueless in that area. I really wish that the other employees that work there would have a bigger vocabulary, cause every word out of their mouth is F this and F that I know sad. So not much conversing goes on between me and them I dont want to get into the habbit of that plus I may get so use to it after a while that I just wont care. So I told Colton and now nowing Colton it will spread, thats a plus cause now everyone that works would now know to watch their language around me I hope they take that into consideration. Hope you guys have a great Halloween! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Bad Eggs!

Right now for our YW activity for tonight I have to find a scripture that is related to Halloween. My subject is Crazy, I chose this one cause I wanted it to stand out, yeah that didnt go far so now I put my subject for tonight on Terror. The scripture for it is Psalms 91:5 "Thou shalt not be afraid for the TERROR by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day." I thought it sounded Halloweeny enough. The reason we are doing this is because it is for pumkin carving, we get a scripture from something like a bucket, and we use that subject to put it on our pumpkins I think it sounds okay I dont know? Right now I am freaking out for tomorrow, because they were pounding on me to learn the stuff that I had to do all in one night yeah right. The guy that is teaching me (Colton Wood) he learned all of that stuff in five days it will probably be taking me longer cause I dont have the whole bagging thing down yet. They are so specific, and that is a good thing, it is so that most of there foods wont get contaminated and having them blame publix and most of the person that bagged for them. I worked for real on my first night on Monday, and this guy already gave me this nasty remark, Robert laughed about it the cashier, he thought it was hillarious I thought it was disgusting and degrading. But I laughed cause Publix loves there customers so much even the nasty ones, and I was doing what Colton was telling me to do, Im going to have to talk to him about that. And he also told me of the pranks that they do to the new employees like oh you have to go check the dressing bottles, and shake them all they did that to this really shy guy and I am so grateful theat he told me about that so they dont make me look like a fool. I have to work with some bad eggs but I hope to change them by my good works and positivness, you have to have alot to work there. Well blog you later. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Yellow.......... UGH :(

Today I felt so relaxed and calm. Church today was really good, I am still getting to know the Leesburg Ward girls little by little. Oh yeah our color for Girls Cam is Yellow and I was so hoping it would have been orange. I think everyone is keeping their same colors they had last time. I dont like it when they do that, cause I want to be other colors, all the times I went to girls camp they repeated the colors for two years. Out of all of my years of going to camp the colors I had was blue, orange, and now yellow I think there was one more I just cant remember. But I know it is going to be a great adventure going cause on a plus it is my last year and I wish it wasnt. We were given a whole bunch of cupcakes and these no bake cookies I am full plus sick and tired of that stuff now. well got to go. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Never felt so comforted in my life!

I was a nervous reck for the past few days. Cause of my Publix Orientation coming Tuesday, I was freaking out so much I was starting to have panic attacks on a daily bases, quit frequently. But when I got to church in my 3rd session, noone volunteered to read the quote she had for us, so I raised my hand to read it. I was reading the quote like I would any other, but when I started to get to the bottom of the quote it said "I have found that to a very large extent life is a series of assignments for which we don't feel fully prepared, but as we accept and do our part, the Lord blesses us with wisdom beyond our natural selves, and in such cases we really reach beyond ourselves. Thus we grow by having to exceed our past selves." Reading this I started to cry thinking this was really meant for me, He really wanted me to read this so He could comfort me in the only way he can. And I am so grateful for that! So I asked if I could copy it and she said I could keep it I was so happy!Well G2G bed time! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

No work X(

Today I feel so bad I forgot to go to work early for Sister Lawton, and when I didnt she couldnt go to work, I dont know I guess I got so used to the schedule, that I just forgot to go to work earlier. She already gave her notice in so I dont feel as bad. Publix should be calling in today, Im going insane. My whole goal in life is screwed up I was supposed to be starting school in January but they want to see my dads record of how much he was paid last year and he got bonuss but we are at like rock bottom. So now I have to wait till August to start school. I had a 10 year plan, now its nothing, I have to start from scratch now. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Certain something?

I bought some cards for a certain holiday so you guys may be getting one at a certain time, all I have to say is that they are so cute and fuzzy. I am getting so much into the whole Halloween shinanigan stuff. I am still trying to redecorate my room into this "whole new world." Its a challenge but I like it! I went to Target and bought some things. Other than that, things have been going good. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

I Think

I think I offically have the job. I just have to give them my social security #. I am so tired I have to go to bed. All what I wanted to say is that everything is going good once I have my job I can start thinking on my school so I can have a way of paying for it. I may have to change school dates. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Good and Bad

I just went for a job interveiw, I dont think im gonna get it cause he mainly wants me on Sunday, Monday, and Wednesday. Im just thinking in my head yeah right so in the afternoon tomorrow he will be calling to see if I have the job or not. Emily is taking my place for work today watching the Lawton kids its Emilys murder. A very good thing that happened to me is that today I lost a total of 11 lb. I am so happy cause all the stress that I have been through in the last few months it took an ugly toll on me. I hope to get a good job in the future. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Seminary, Lawton's, Target, & Home

I went to seminary today as usual, worked at the Lawtons, and went to Target I got Bailey a new collar, and a costume it doesnt fit right cause he is a dachshund and he has a long body and I totally didnt realize the fact that he is a regular size dog. Right size for around the stomach, but not lenght wise, so I am exchanging it with the bumble bee outfit. I saw Donavan and his little broter he was with his mom and his step dad I guess he was visiting her, he scared the living daylights out of me, he jumped from right behind me, I think he likes Emily, but that is just me, and everyone in my family. Heehee. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

9/11

Oh man already 7 years to this day that the war has gone on, and that the New York Twin Towers were hit. I was watching on the news when I was babysitting the video of the destruction of the Towers it was like crazy. And a good thing is that John Mcain was at the ceremony with the President so that is a bonus for his election, cause I think Obama wasnt there they didnt show him. It shows Mcain cares, I think so. They also had two women who I think that were victims of the Twin Towers, shouted out the people who were killed on that day. I tried to find a picture of the Towers, but most of them were of them getting hit with the planes so I found one that I liked that werent destroyed, finally. God Bless America! ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE. P.S. I finally got my diploma Yesterday. I know awesome.

College Administration

I went to the Community College and I was so scared, I didnt know what to expect. It was cool though. I am so excited till I take my career test and my placement test so I can get started on what I need to be doing for my future. I know I have a short attention span but I saw this cute guy there as we were walking in the Student Service Building and if atleast half of the campus looks that good, I will feel right at home. I am so excited to be starting college, I know I am going to have a great time there. Escpecially the (partying) classmates, I hope they are okay. I know that it isnt going to be all fun but what is the harm in making it mentally fun. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Sport and Subjects I will do in College

When I start school I will be looking up on the sport area, I know it isnt an everyday sport to people that I know. But I was always fascinated with it. As you can see in the picture there are boxing gloves that is exactly what sport I will be doing. Plus it is one sport that I know that I will surely succeed in if any of you know me that well. To know that I am aggressive. The other subjects that I want to be doing is Psychology, Religion, and more stuff I just cant think of it right now. And later on Medicine, cause I plan on prescribing people and I want to know what I am giving them exactly so I dont get legally charged or anything like that, just because I made them more mental or something. Knowing that I find it really important. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Invisible

I felt invisible today at church, Leesburg girls didnt really even talk to me I have no clue why, even the Eustis girls were not really talking to me either. I couldnt have said anything to them cause I really dont even talk to them any more since I moved. I feel so out of place now, its like I dont belong to any ward anymore. Today is Sarah's birthday, Brian, Renee, and Tyler came over. I made a sea necklace and bracelet, it looks so cute I used fuzzy beads. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Life Altering

It was the usuall today, I woke up went to Seminary then afterward went to Target. Got a few pairs of jeans and a cool lookin buisness vest. Then after that I went to work, she asked me if I could come 45min. earlier, when she was talking to my mom on the phone I just had a feeling she was asking that. Marcella and Connor were the same. I heard a few days ago but my mom knew for a while is that Kattie has signs of breast cancer, she is going for a doctors visit today. I dont know what to think, I am mostly sad knowing someone I love and have a very personal relationship with and someone who I can relate to has a life altering disease. My grandma said that she put her name on the prayer role at the temple. I got home and life is still the same cant get hold of my friends, bored to death, and going insane. I figured out that we have a relative that I didnt know about and he was at my dads work for the longest time working for him. We always had a close relationship with him and I never knew why we never had any connection with othor people at his work like that. But now I know why. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

I am Broken :(

First of all I am not a cluzt, and I do not know how this happened, well kind of. I just got done taking a shower and I was getting ready for church. Just to let you know our flooring in our house is like flippin concrete, so in our house the saying is really the bigger you are the heavier you fall, and the more it hurts. I was walking in the bathroom and I felt my foot slip a bit. My left foot slipped in the front of me, and my right in the back. When my front foot was slipping in the process it hit the edge of the bathroom counter, I heard and felt my bone crack oh boy that scared me. I wasnt all the way on the floor my hands caught the counter top, and I was almost in a split possition. It hurt so bad I slowly lowered myself onto the hard floor to sit down, it hurt so bad I was screaming on the inside. My mom came around the corner and found me and helped me, I was crazy enough to go to church. That sounded weird didnt it, not going to church. I got ready in 30 minutes and it sure a heck showed it. But I was glad to go I hope this toe thing gets better. Just a fun little fact this is my first broken bone, I have had fractures, but never a broken bone. It looks all deformed now all bruised and everything. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Bailey and Franklin

Today was our last day of Seminary for the week. I feel better now not having to wake up at like 5:00 in the morning, it is starting up next week, just like school, cause those are the days we have to go. Oh my squash I feel so dumb I have been spelling college wrong in my blogs, I guess if I plan on going there in a few months I better learn how to spell it. Right. Yesterday my sisters and I found a baby red-eared slider turtle, he was a little bit bigger than a quarter, so he was a baby, born probably a few weeks ago. The reason I know what it is, it is because I was looking on the Internet for it, for a half hour. I named him Franklin, as in the little cartoon character, if you didnt know that. He warmed up to me pretty quickly. Bailey stole the front seat from me again when I got out of Seminary. He is so spoiled he was using to warm himself up, and to use as a bed was the lap blanket that I loved so much, that I made in Y.W. in the Eustis Ward. So I sat in the back all the way home. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Seminary Class President

Oh my squash I didnt think I would even be getting elected. I was excited to tell the news on my blog I just couldnt wait. Today Sister Cash said I was to be Seminary Class President I was shocked, my mind was still processing what she had to say. My last year in Seminary and I am finally President. What a way to go. We got home an hour ago from church, yeah I was that excited to tell you guys. Oh yeah this Wdnesday I am going to get my ID, I would then be one step closer to getting into colledge for coming up January. Well I have to get ready for work, Blog you later. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Mother Nature

Today I was offically declared Mother Nature, I made a friend with a baby tree frog I caught him and he just sat on the top of my hand for a while. Then after that I saw a little butterfly, it was on my mom's Marigolds. I put my hand on the flower and he put himself up on the side of my finger and he just sat there. We named it Marigold. Emily, Sarah, & I were watching Little Racsals, there so cute I cant stand it. Its raining and I just put up my new layout for my blog, I'm thinking about changing it. Maybe, maybe not. Oh we finally have a club house, it may seem childish but it is so much fun to think you are apart of something like that. Got to go lightning. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Staying for a few days

I made a new blog and it was for my best freind Melissa I hope she likes it when she sees it. My Uncle Vernan is still with us he has been here since early Sat. morning like at 1:30 in the morning early. He will be leaving tomorrow dont know when though? My cousin Maria and here husband Tim stayed with us since early Sat. morning till today at 11:00 or something it was right before chuch though. I am tired, and cant wait to go to bed. I am waiting for Melissa's call she said she was gonna call back, she may later hopefully. Well. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Right at me

I felt my future come right at me cause well it may be weird but I felt really accomplished when I bought my own things that my parents would normally buy, cause they say that it is their job to do that. I went with my Grandma Smalt, my sister Emily and Sarah to the store and we had a good time. Today was great I didnt have to go to work. I was able to play with Bailey today so that was a possitive. I bought that DS Guitar Hero game it is really fun, it feels just like the game we played in St. Augustine. Now I can play with Jenny aka Jensen. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Accidentally

My birthday was so much more better than what I expected. Noone was fighting and there was no contention in the house, why cant everyday be like that? Yesterday Bailey was accidentally left outside for a half hour all by himself, out of nowhere I had a feeling that I needed to call Bailey no response, so I freaked we checked everywhere. The only place that we didnt check and I hoped that he wouldnt be, that he wouldnt have been outside. And guess what he was, My dad thought that the doorbell would get Bailey out of his hiding spot cause he normally barks like mad at the doorbell, he is our guard dog, more like it got Bailey in, inside the house. He was right outside the door. He was so hot and plus he stunk so I gave Bailey a bath, nothing like saying we missed you like a nice long bath. But after that I spoiled him with a whole bunch of people food, so now he is C.F.F. clean, full, & fat! Today I watched Marcella and Connor as usuall, nothing out of the ordinary. I need to go shopping! Melissa will be getting a phone call from me.ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

B-Day Celebration STUNK!

Today Bailey made a huge mess in his kenel and I couldn't clean it at the time so my parents were argueing with me about it cause I didnt do what they had said right from the start. Whatever. We went to Olive Garden, yeah my dad got this lady to sing happy birthday to me and my grandma which I didnt want and I told him that, cause I feel like my birthday is just a circus when that happens. My parents thought it would be a cool present if they let me go to the store and pick an outfit for church, yeah I thought it was cool so I went along with it. But after a while I got frustrated cause they were telling me that what I picked out they didnt like so I basically didnt get anything cause they didnt like my style of clothing, what is wrong with the clothes that I wear, its not sleezy or hooker matieral. Then after a few stores they were going off argueing and telling me," Whatever lets just go". I was mad the whole time, so yeah my birthday celebration stunk the nation. I hope tomorrow will be better, doubt it cause this was just the party just imagine when I turn 17 tomorrow Satan's Layer will break loose knowing my parents. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

About to be........17!

I went to work today and while I was at work Emily told me when they picked me up that Bailey was sick and throwing up alot, after I left, so he is being babied right now. I am so excited because my birthday is in five days and I will be turning 17 how cool is that. I finally finished all of my school work a day ago, I sent it in and I should be hearing from them in two weeks. And then I will be recieving my diploma, then I can start my online colledge courses. It came to my attention that I need a new job so I'll look into it, but I dont know? Melissa told me of this summer job at the Elks Lodge place where we just were for Youth Conference and how you will be staying there for 6 weeks straight with a whole bunch of kids. You can come home on Saturday, but you have to be back at a certain time the next morning. I find it fascinating and a way to get away. A 2-in-1 package, you cant ask for anything better. Right now I am tired and ready to go to bed so I can dream of us "eating rainbows and pooping butterflies." Thats from Horton hears a who, if you didnt know that. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

I'm Back :D from Youth Conference

I'm back from Youth Conference it was so much fun I was able to stay with the Eustis Ward girls in their cabin for the rest of the time being there. First day we went to Doe Lake and slept in the Mess Hall while the guys slept in tents outside in the wet grass with a whole bunch of blood sucking mosquitoes, while we were there we did the skits in a bag game and our group, group #7 got the theme David and Goliath. It was so much fun. We got ready for bed later on and layed out our sleeping bags, I slept on a table like some of the other girls cause bug spray and dirt were on the floor and I didnt want any of it to get on my stuff and sleeping bag. When I woke up on the Second day I felt so sick, I stuck it out though cause I know my Heavenly Father is testing me, and later on we left Doe Lake and went to the Elk lodge, with cabins oh yeah. We wrote to the Elders that were on a mission and they were cute ones to that we wrote too. we played a whole bunch of sports like volleyball, tug of war, soccer I didnt get to play that, and swiming I didnt get to do that either. Then we got ready for the dance I got ready of course with the Eustis girls, it took us like 2 and a half hours but it was so much fun. When we were going to the dance it was muggy, and it started sprinkling. The dance was fun I danced with John Kelepi, Jon Brooks, Tanner ?, John Devera, and Allyson's Brother who is like 3 years younger than me. This guy from Apopka Ward (Chase) messed up my Conga Train. We left the dance at 11:00p.m. and went to bed right after. When I woke up the next day 6:00 in the morning I felt sick again but it only lasted 30 min. Thank goodness, my prayers have been anwsered. We left for breakfast at 8:00, then we went to our classes, then we had lunch at 12:00. After lunch we went to the Testimony Meeting for an hour and a half. After that we changed out of our dress clothes and went home :( It was so much fun being there I left like a few hours ago and I want to go back. It is that fun plus the CUTE GUYS. ALOHA, ADIOS, AND BYE.

College

I am so close to finishing my last finishing pieces of my very last exam ever I am excited. The I can finally focus on colledge I have no idea were I want to go but I know I am going somewhere, but not just anywhere though. I can just taste my future. People may think that I am wierd but I like paying bills and stuff like that I know that people that dont have money dont like to pay bills but that isnt our fault they could have done something but instead they chose to do nothing and whine for the decision they have made on their own, but the people who dont have an opportunity to go to school in their youth can go to school and get their diploma. I feel privilaged and honored for the life that I have to go and be successful in whatever I do. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

PIONEER DAY

As you can see on the title it says Pioneer Day I surely felt like one, we had to wake up early go to our church and make breakfast for I think it was or almost a hundred people. It was okay. I went with Sarah Evans today to go see "Journey to the Center of the Earth." It was awesome the craziest thing I have seen in a while. Yesterday I finally got some awesome pants not just one but four and I likem alot, and I also got two new tshirts. They are for Youth Conference, and I heard there are going to be more guys there than girls. First were going to spend the night at Doe Lake, girls are going to sleep in the mess hall and the boys are going to sleep in tents, great I know I wonder who thought of this. And then on we are going to sleep in cabins, air conditioned cabins. I hope I make alot of new friends their. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE.

Batman Movie

At church today we were talking about each other our likes and dislikes stuff like that. Sarah Evans has seen the new Batman movie so I am going to call her back and see if she wants to see it again with me. Yesterday was the dance, and for the graduates we had to walk off a wobbly plank with our eyes blind-folded. It was so scary they made us think we were gonna be jumping in a tub of something, we thought pudding, but heck I know I would taste good in it. I am starting to make more friends in the Leesburg Ward, but I still dont feel like one, that is just because I will always be a Eustis girl. When I came home, the first thing that we always smell when we come in throught the front door is Bailey he takes the biggest load a dog could make, and he is a miniature so I dont know were he is getting all of that from. Well ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Tomorrow

Today I finally got paid and for some reason I thought I was working tomorrow, weird huh, I guess when you work five days out of the week for like six or seven hours a day you kind of get used to it. I was now having dinner a few seconds ago, this was stupid I just put Bailey on the bed and all of a sudden I heard this weird smackng noise, guess what it was Bailey was eating my dinner and I didn't even really get any, that stunk. The dance is tomorrow and I am so excited I am going to the mall to get some new clothes and to see about a new brand of perfume. I hope I look good tomorrow. Got to get some beauty rest I need alot of it. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

The Wave Cleanser

When I was done with work today I went to walmart and got the wave I hope it works. I have the machine thing and the stress oil control thing. It seems like it could work. Today at work was a pain I was cleaning the house for Sis. Lawton cause she says that she doesnt have enough time for it so I work on it while I watch the kids. I have no idea what I am doing tomorrow, I heard something of going to the beach to wtch the kids, or I don't know something like that I am confused!I am exhausted and I am now going to bed. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

(:So Cute:)

Today didnt get any better it just added on when I started to watch the Lawton kids. But I felt better when I got payed, like everyone does. We are watching another new episode of (H2O) the most awesome show on Nickelodeon. Zane is so cute and so is Louis he got cute quickly, good news for me. My bird wouldnt be quiet this morning he is like a flippin alarm clock. if anyone wants to wake up right when the sun hits their windows let me know I will more than happy to lend him to you. Im gonna need to sleep with something so when he does do that in the morning, i can just throw it at him to make him be quiet. I am making friends in Leesburg ward thats not a problem for me, its just that their not my Eustis friends. I hope i will get use to it soon. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Leesburg Ward Girl:( OH MY GOODNESS!

It is so hard for me right now moving in knowing that I am officially a Leesburg girl. It hurts me as much as Emily but I am trying so hard, to be so strong for them I just can't help it, so I let all my frustration out right before bed by doing meditation aka listening to music, as the church says it is a huge part in our life. I cant let them know that I am breaking down like this. Melissa's birthday is tomorrow and I cant do anything for her cause I'm working all day and I am just flat broke. I just finally felt like I belonged in Eustis and now I am starting from scratch, by going to Leesburg. I miss my neighbors and my friends from the Eustis Ward. I can't sleep cause I am so frustrated that I couldnt go to the thing on Wed. with the Eustis girls. It stunk. I was working, my whole life basically right now are those kids, the kids I watch and serve. And I dont want it to be like that at all. My life is so insain right now at this point. Well see ya, ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!

Not about me, but my bird!

Emily and Sarah were able to have one of their friends come over, yeah right if I ever asked that question to see if one of my friends could come over their remarks are,'' not today, probably next weekend, and so on of whatever their saying. My saturdays are always about my family I am so sick of it I want a weekend to be about me for once. Ya know. I am just here sitting on the computer doing nothing except writting on my blog which isn't that bad. Sunny won't shut up he is like a flippin rooster, and wakes me up at like 6:00 or 7;00 in the morning dumb bird, but hes cute. Ill turn on the radio and Ill just get in the groove of the music, and Sunny he will just start dancing on the top of his cage, head banging. Hes a keeper though. I told Emily ''maybe one day'' while sunny was dance cause he copies me ''that I will teach him at the end of a dance to spin and spread his wings out instantly'' Having said and done that, Sunny opens his wings and flies then falls to the ground. I did not know I had that much influence on Sunny while he dances insainly. my kind of bird. Well I guess you can't be you without some sort of flaw. ADIOS, ALOHA, & BYE!

Horrificic Wednesday

Today I guess was regular waking up at 9:00a.m. getting to go for work got there and I put the kids to bed cause I start work at 12:00p.m. it was time for a nap. I rewashed my hair @ 2:00p.m. and then an hour and a half later I straightened it. Guess what when I was done watching the kids and when it was time to go it started to down pour so I got a blanket to cover my hair my first night at young Womens was going to be perfect so I went all out. When we were on the way to church I prayed obsessively for the rain to stop, and it did for a while, just enough time for me to get inside. The night was terrible noone talked to me few did though, I saw Marcella and Connor, so I played with them and the night still felt the same. So when I saw dad come around the corner it was like superman saving me from the grasps of the unknown. So I am going to call Melissa and get some idas from her on how to liven up the the leesburg ward young womens. Well now I am having to ponder on the fact that I am living an even boring life. ADIOS, ALOHA, BYE!

Oh my gosh!

Today started out like crap my parents yelling at me. Getting frustrated first thing in the morning it is exhausting, I'd expect that from the world not from my own parents, there like oh were preparing you. Yeah right my butt. My parents think I am lazy or whatever yeah right, I'm trying to have time for myself but they see it as being lazy. Cause every second of the day I am either being called like a dog or being commanded. I can't even think for myself, it is sad I cant even make a simple decisson as to what i am supposed either do like a yes or no awnser, or what I would like to do. I cant even do anything without them saying something, I dont care if they are my parents they just need to get out of my face. Now I know why Kattie wanted to get out of the house so bad, I am right there with her. My life has taken a toll and I know who is the master mind behind it all, cause why the heck would I do this to myself. I can't wait to move, it is just so sad how bad I wanted to move. A few weeks ago I was literally considering marrying the first moron I saw, and from then I didnt care what would of happened to me as long as I was away from my so called parents. :( I didn't care if I were to die or whatever on the street. Oh yeah and I bet you if my parents saw what I was writting theyd tell me to take it off. It's like they are trying to hide their true selves. Then theyd tell me it is my fault for me being the way that I am, they are literally verbally abusing me I know the signs that they are. Go to www.rainn.com and it will tell you the signs for people who are verbally abused and etc. I am what they say word for word. Well got to go to the life I call Hell. ALOHA, ADIOS, BYE!

Sorry :(

Sorry, I havent been writting lately It's been storming over here and I was afraid to use the computer, it might of fried it. Anyway we have been doing the yard sale and it has been okay so far, I know my stuff has been selling fine, I am giving my parents my stuff to sell so they can have the money plus I had a feeling that I should let them have it. It is my last day of babysitting and I am finally getting paid woohoo! Now that we are almost in I am finally able to use my computer soon to write on my blog, I know I am so excited! My future has been on my mind, getting me confused I know what I want to do it's just that I don't know where to go for it so I am trying to finish my last exam, and then I will dictate where to go and hopefully it will be the right place to go. I should just pray about it, it never hurts to pray and plus he does give you helpfull hints on the subject. Babysitting has just gotten easier, and I am so glad like you don't know how much, the kids are so much fun now to hang around and watch. My family calls me their Nanny, that is one job I know I will be good at. Because I discipline the children, not in an agressive way but in a way that they know what they are doing is wrong and should stop and I do get through to them one way or another, I guess you can call it determination. I just make it easier on the parents so when the parents come home they wont come home to fighting they will come home to angels! Well see ya, ALOHA, ADIOS, BYE!

So Tired

Right now I am baby sitting the lawton kids Marcella & Connor. They are a handful but I guess there okay. right now I am saving up for my future and my room we (just moved to the new house), and I am planning my future in the process because everything to me has to be percise. I am a neat freak, almost everything has to be my way (If it is about me) because if it doesn't I break down, not in tears but in anger. My parents are getting on my last nerve argueing with me and telling me that everything is my fault for the way that I am, and how I got here. That is why I am saving a butt load of money and moving back to Eustis where my life is and always is. Oh my gosh Yesterday at church I saw John Wild III. He has changed so much since the last time I have seen him ( In a good way) and that was like in the 5th grade (we went to school together from I think kindergarden to 5th grade). We are now 16 years old and the last time we met we were 10 years old. I forgot his B-day was in the same month as mine we were the youngest in the class. Anyway enough about him even though I am excited that he is back finally. Right when were to move (saying sarcasticaly). Well at this point life stinks, and when it was getting better it just got worse, you know the saying (That's life) well it shouldn't be! anyway g2g. ALOHA, ADIOS, BYE!

It's been a while!?

I know it's been a while since I have written on my blog it is just that my family and I are moving to a new destination known as Leesburg. I feel bad thinking I am leaving my friends behind that I have known for a long time. Oh yeah I'm not even on my computer. I am on Sis. Carter's brother's computer it is wel known around here no lie. I have recieved a new name from my Eustis friends, I forgot what it was it will come to me :( . well the time is late and I am tired ready for bed and I cant wait for our fancy lunch tomorrow at one of the top ten most popular hotels in the world forgot the name I'll think of it later. I miss my dog, he cried right before I left for the weekend. The previous weekend I was at camp it was hot sweaty and stinky but other than that it was a blast. Well time for bed got to go, Adios Aloha, Bye!
P.S. I'm back in the action again!!!!!

I babysat today :l

I babysat today it was okay but it could of been better. Oh the kids who I babysat today was the Lawton's, marcella thinks that it is okay to hit adults, she is saying please, thank you, and she also like to share, but the real problem is when she is around connor her younger brother she almost literally killed one time on my watch and I was freaking out. Here the story is I was in the living room with them and we were all watching cartoons and all of a sudden connor started crying well at that time in his life he will want to be picked up, but I didnt stupid mistake. A while into his crying and all of a sudden I heard a change of tone in his cry, Marcela had Connor's face barried into the ground with a blanket on his head with no air passages for him to breath. I freaked out like crazy Marcela went into the highchair by herself for a while. My philosophy is, is that if you act like a baby I will treat you like a baby, she is a bout to turn 4 I put her in Connor's highchair when she is bad and I dont talk to her until she is ready to apoligize or accept what she did is wrong. Yeah I just got home, the time is 7:58 p.m. and I am exhausted like crazy I may just go to sleep, Well I'll talk to you later ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!

P.S. Isn't this old pics of my Brianna Xander Anabella so cute I miss them so much (I wish I could fly over water)

Bailey is being a butt!!

Bailey is being a butt first of all we went to seminary this morning and he had all the time in the world to go to the bathroom. Oh no he thought he would wait and take a crap in the house, the house still stinks. We walked around the lake he did a drop here and a drop there of peeing, so I was just sick of it it was hot and I didnt feel like sitting in the hot sun just to let him feel more dominate in teritory. So He pretty much was gagged the whole way home. Now Emily is lecturing me on life in general shes a butt too. She thinks she's not, butt she is, get it butt she is. Any way I'm here about to get done and finish my school work ......... Oh by the way HOMESCHOOLERS RULE! ALOHA, ADIOS, BOOD BYE!

Today was a bit better!

Today was a bit better my mom wasnt being as snooty as yesterday. Bailey I think is dehidrated so I've been forcing him to drink, and I gave him a tum it works for me why not for him? Today I colored this picture that i was meaning to color yesterday but I didnt. Oh my gosh my mom just came in and just started getting up in my face saying thats not important, really if this is helping with my stressed anger of couse it is much more important to me than anything else put together. I just wish she would have just one nice thing to say to me when she speaks to me of course she doesnt want to let her guard down. Cause anything she says to me it is anger sometimes I wish I could just jump off the balcony but I cant cause my retarded parents are just going to be putting back on that stupid pill again if they knew that I was thinking that, oh the thing is it doesnt seem like they for me much at all cause when something in my life comes up wrong the only way I can get the help that I need is if we are in a huge crowd so everyone can see who she really is. People think that my parents are nice they think they are concerned for our well being what ever like they would care an inch, of how I feel in any way. The only time that they would ever care is if I did something for them like the dishes. Thats the only time they are nice to me stupid isnt it. well I got to go to this life that I call hell. ALOHA, ADIOS, BOOD BYE!

Today was church :)

Today was church, we had to watch General Conference of cource on the TV. Sadly for me I fell asleep in just the first few minutes, I feel stupid. I remember that I heard someone say a long time ago was that if you judge someone you will be accounted for the same thing that you judge. Scary huh! SO DONT JUDGE SOMEONE EVER! Well when I woke up I got into the shower as my dog sits on the toilet sleeping. Then I gave him a bath, isnt that stupid. Once I was done I watched Mariposa my little sister Sarah's movie it was okay, exept for in this Barbie movie the prince had an accent and it wasnt a good one either, it kind of freaked me out. Then we watched General Conference, after that was over, we then watched the Young Women broadcast I think thats what it was? Now I am just sitting in this chair watching my life go before my eyes. Oh yeah never mind I can draw or color, I like to color better, the work is already done all you have to do is make it pop. Or in other words come to life. MWAHAHAHA! Oh my goodness my mom is being a major pain today all what she does is just nagg me about my faults that I have in life. Today she was angrilly telling me you should let your sister pet bailey , my mom is something else. First of all Sarah is sick hacking up, and just imagine bailey getting that, my mom thinks bailey wont get it. He is already pucking whatever up and she wants sarah to pet him. When he throws up afterward he gaggs then immediatley right after he trys to inhales for air very deeply. And he does that back and forth on and off. My mom thinks she knows everything and she may tell you that I think that I know everything, the thing is, is that I am trying to, the only way I can know things is if I can experiment with them, put them to action, plus she may be jealous that I may know alot more than she does he he. Well I g2g ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!

p.s. This is my second fav. Anne Geddes pictures! (plum pudding)

My family and I :(

My family and I went to go clean the church today, it was okay I got to clean the chalk boards booyah! My mom was arguing with me today and of all places the church how stupid is that just because sh is getting in her old days doesnt mean that she has to be pure evil :(. Today Ligaya is helping me with my prom dress for church, we are also going to enter ourselves in this contest for Jo-Anns. We have to make a prom outfit, and all the materials we made it with thay had to come from Jo-Ann Fabrics, the winner gets $1,000 Ligaya are splitting it 50/50, a sewing machine she is getting that, and I guess a manaqune she is also getting that. The thing is I designed it, and she is sewing it doesnt that seem fair, YES! Once I got home from the church clean up I have never seen Bailey get so excited to get out of his kennel. It was cute though.Well got to go my dad is being a butt. ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!

Right Now!

Right now I feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster ride right now, dont know why but I am. My abnormal parents are acting stupid as always. I feel like they will never understand how I feel and why I feel this way. Honestly my parents are not really helping right now I just got of these stupid pills that I have been on for over half a year, and they think that I am just going to magically go back to the way I was YEAH RIGHT. I think the only person that really understands me is my grandma, and she wants her life to end weird huh! I just wish that someone out there will understand me, and not talk about me behind my back. The only things that I can do to get away from this so called life is to do the thing that i like to do (MY INTERESTS). Well I got to go or my parents will try to find a way to get me in trouble or start a fight. ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!