Oh my gosh!

Today started out like crap my parents yelling at me. Getting frustrated first thing in the morning it is exhausting, I'd expect that from the world not from my own parents, there like oh were preparing you. Yeah right my butt. My parents think I am lazy or whatever yeah right, I'm trying to have time for myself but they see it as being lazy. Cause every second of the day I am either being called like a dog or being commanded. I can't even think for myself, it is sad I cant even make a simple decisson as to what i am supposed either do like a yes or no awnser, or what I would like to do. I cant even do anything without them saying something, I dont care if they are my parents they just need to get out of my face. Now I know why Kattie wanted to get out of the house so bad, I am right there with her. My life has taken a toll and I know who is the master mind behind it all, cause why the heck would I do this to myself. I can't wait to move, it is just so sad how bad I wanted to move. A few weeks ago I was literally considering marrying the first moron I saw, and from then I didnt care what would of happened to me as long as I was away from my so called parents. :( I didn't care if I were to die or whatever on the street. Oh yeah and I bet you if my parents saw what I was writting theyd tell me to take it off. It's like they are trying to hide their true selves. Then theyd tell me it is my fault for me being the way that I am, they are literally verbally abusing me I know the signs that they are. Go to www.rainn.com and it will tell you the signs for people who are verbally abused and etc. I am what they say word for word. Well got to go to the life I call Hell. ALOHA, ADIOS, BYE!

Sorry :(

Sorry, I havent been writting lately It's been storming over here and I was afraid to use the computer, it might of fried it. Anyway we have been doing the yard sale and it has been okay so far, I know my stuff has been selling fine, I am giving my parents my stuff to sell so they can have the money plus I had a feeling that I should let them have it. It is my last day of babysitting and I am finally getting paid woohoo! Now that we are almost in I am finally able to use my computer soon to write on my blog, I know I am so excited! My future has been on my mind, getting me confused I know what I want to do it's just that I don't know where to go for it so I am trying to finish my last exam, and then I will dictate where to go and hopefully it will be the right place to go. I should just pray about it, it never hurts to pray and plus he does give you helpfull hints on the subject. Babysitting has just gotten easier, and I am so glad like you don't know how much, the kids are so much fun now to hang around and watch. My family calls me their Nanny, that is one job I know I will be good at. Because I discipline the children, not in an agressive way but in a way that they know what they are doing is wrong and should stop and I do get through to them one way or another, I guess you can call it determination. I just make it easier on the parents so when the parents come home they wont come home to fighting they will come home to angels! Well see ya, ALOHA, ADIOS, BYE!

So Tired

Right now I am baby sitting the lawton kids Marcella & Connor. They are a handful but I guess there okay. right now I am saving up for my future and my room we (just moved to the new house), and I am planning my future in the process because everything to me has to be percise. I am a neat freak, almost everything has to be my way (If it is about me) because if it doesn't I break down, not in tears but in anger. My parents are getting on my last nerve argueing with me and telling me that everything is my fault for the way that I am, and how I got here. That is why I am saving a butt load of money and moving back to Eustis where my life is and always is. Oh my gosh Yesterday at church I saw John Wild III. He has changed so much since the last time I have seen him ( In a good way) and that was like in the 5th grade (we went to school together from I think kindergarden to 5th grade). We are now 16 years old and the last time we met we were 10 years old. I forgot his B-day was in the same month as mine we were the youngest in the class. Anyway enough about him even though I am excited that he is back finally. Right when were to move (saying sarcasticaly). Well at this point life stinks, and when it was getting better it just got worse, you know the saying (That's life) well it shouldn't be! anyway g2g. ALOHA, ADIOS, BYE!

It's been a while!?

I know it's been a while since I have written on my blog it is just that my family and I are moving to a new destination known as Leesburg. I feel bad thinking I am leaving my friends behind that I have known for a long time. Oh yeah I'm not even on my computer. I am on Sis. Carter's brother's computer it is wel known around here no lie. I have recieved a new name from my Eustis friends, I forgot what it was it will come to me :( . well the time is late and I am tired ready for bed and I cant wait for our fancy lunch tomorrow at one of the top ten most popular hotels in the world forgot the name I'll think of it later. I miss my dog, he cried right before I left for the weekend. The previous weekend I was at camp it was hot sweaty and stinky but other than that it was a blast. Well time for bed got to go, Adios Aloha, Bye!
P.S. I'm back in the action again!!!!!