March has been amazing

I would have to say I love the month of March. It has been the luckiest month of my life. One thing is that I have met Luke and we have grown REALLY close. I have been just all around happy this month. I love the walks that Luke and I have been going on.. Lately they haven't been walks, more like we have been cuddling. :-)We have been talking about going to Illinois when we will both be taking a break from school. I just hope that with school we will be able to have our time together. I know that it will not be as often or as much as now... I would just miss him!!! It is not like we are not going to be able to see each other, trust me we will find a way.

Wishing

Having dinner with the Wilson Family was hilarious. Rex actually did come... Food was involved, so of course he is going to come. While he was here I couldn't help but think of Luke. I was wishing Luke was here instead of Rex. No offense to Rex or anything, I just wanted Luke to be with me while we were all having fun. I was the talk of the party. It was either they were making fun of me as usual or they were asking questions that made me feel uncomfortable. After all these years of being picked on I thought that I would be use to it. Oh well I guess :-P... I am getting ahead of myself, as usual. This morning Luke came to church with me and my family again. Yay! I kind of wanted him to stay for the third hour. I want to let him know how important the church/gospel is to me. While holding hands in church today for the first hour my fingers started to turn purple. No biggie! With Luke they can be purple anytime.

Busch Gardens: Take 2

On the way to Busch Gardens I was wondering.. Am I Luke's first girlfriend? The answer to that would be yes. I was thinking this for a few days now. I loved going to the park this time. I was able to meet Riley, Luke's niece. And Amy, Riley's mother. Riley was adorable and Amy was super sweet. Later throughout the day I was noticing how we kept on walking closer, bumping into each other... so I thought what the heck. I reached for his arm and then a little after me having his arm in a death grip, I went for the hand. Yup, I so went there. We went on the Water rapid ride two times. The first time we didn't even get wet, I was bummed. We went the second time, we got soaked. We walked in some shops, saw a show or two, cruised around the park for most of the time. Really I just had an AMAZING day. After Luke and I went to Institute, we went to Chick-fil-a. He had never been before, so I thought that I would be the first to introduce him to what he has been missing out on. On the way there I had the worst headache in the world. My arms went numb and tingly, sharp stinging pains all over my head, and I couldn't barely breathe. It hurt so bad I was starting to cry! That is something that I do not want to go through again. Hopefully. Other than that everything was "AMAZING".

Cloud 9

Oh my dang! Last night was the best night by far since Luke and I have been "hanging out". He asked me if I would like to go out with him.. as a couple, boyfriend and girlfriend. My heart dropped. I kept on saying yes. We gave each other a hug after that. Then we started opening up the doors. We told each other how we really felt about one another..... How did all this come about? I told him," I think I have been asking the wrong questions.. about us." I asked him," What are your feelings right now towards me?"..... after going on about what we liked about each other, you know the usual responses. We started talking about the move that his family may take and how it was holding him back from making any decisions. I gave him a number of a guy, that my dad knows, who owns a carpet company. I am HOPING that this will fix the problem. Then we started walking towards the pond... That is when he asked me. Right now I am just so happy nothing can ruin this day. Not even work can change how I feel right now.

Love the kitchen

I never knew how much I missed Melissa until she came to Institute tonight. We were trying to catch up on the months that we haven't seen each other. We told each other of our good and bad moments, most being good. She is now coming to Institute more often than usual. I am sooo happy! I cannot wait until Luke comes over :-D. I would have to say that he is one that puts a smile on my face for no reason at all. Other than me having butterflies all through my body, that is how I express that overwhelming emotion that I have grown fond of. Tomorrow I am finally able to work in the Bakery, being a cake decorator... Which I have NO experience whatsoever! I loath taking calls. Other than the phone I absolutely love the Bakery. I found another one of my drawings that I thought to have lost. Nope. It was in my closet with other pictures that I want to hang on my wall. I have been talking with my mom and she thinks that it is a good idea for me to buy things for my hope chest. I am starting on the kitchen. If you think about it the kitchen is the most expensive part of your home... might as well get that room out of the way, next is the bathroom. I now have cutlery, silverware, (nice golden yellow) plates, and placemats.

Stavros Pizza

I worked from 8:30 - 4:30.... That is all I have to say about work, other than Luke finally came back to work today. Yay! I got home and my family wanted to go out to Stavros. I am thinking I just ate something, why did they wait to tell me this after I ate something. When we were sitting at the table in the corner I told my mom that I told Luke that she thought that Luke was gay. She turned red! I told her how he reacted to the situation, she was embarrassed. I am waiting for him to get off of work now. We want to go to the movie theatre tonight, I am really excited..... Never mind scratch that, I do have something to say about work today. Last night Luke was talking about Katherine and how she get a little flirty with him. Today at work when she was bagging for him it was hilarious. Last nights discussion was playing out in my head.. I hope people didn't think that I was acting all retarded, because I was trying not to laugh. Stavros was really good I only had wee bit of a Greek pizza. Lets just say I am stuffed. I dislike feeling like that. Waiting..waiting....waiting........ :-)

Cole Robertson

With it being daylight savings, I have lost one hour of sleep. Church started at 10:00 and for me it ended at 3:00. I had a meeting right after. Surprisingly for only having around 5 hours of sleep I am not tired. I know a little boy named Cole that I have grown close to, his father (only at the age of 29) past away. He came to me, sad, confused. He asked if I could sit with him. I told him that I would. I missed my Relief Society class, knowing that I should stay with Cole. He started crying and he told me that his father had passed away. He asked if I knew where his dad was. I told him that he is in heaven. Cole is only 9, I think he understands more than what we think he is able to soak in. This little boy touches my heart. His Grandpa was there on the other side of him not going to class as well because he didn't want to leave him alone to his thoughts. When I was sitting next to him he pulled out the hand out cards with Jesus on the front of it. He saw that there was a video on the back, something you can get when you call the number underneath the photo. Cole said "I have to have that, I need that. I need to learn as much of Jesus Christ as I can." I was fighting back tears! This boy after having his father pass away you would think that he would go in the other direction and not seek for help and guidance. We can learn so much from these little guys. We just need to be open to them.

Blood... Eeeew!

When I was on the register today all of a sudden I heard a bang. I was wondering what that was, so was everyone else. All of a sudden I didn't have anyone in my lane. Tiffany told me to get some paper towels on express, I did so then and there. Not knowing what I was about to see, I saw the one thing that can make me sick to my stomach.... BLOOD! Lots of it. An elderly lady fell on the floor, tripping over her own feet. I saw the blood on the floor, on her hands, some on Aaron. The lady had a gash over her right eye brow. I had to leave, so I went back to my register. The rest of the time being on the register I was trying to forget what I had seen. Let me say it wasn't easy. Robert was my bagger, that helped a little. Then 30 minutes right before I was suppose to go home I helped out a lady with a BLOODshot eye. She told me that she had to have a needle injected in her pupil. She said the reason for having the needle was that she was bleeding in the back of her eye. I was going crazy. I was worried for both these women hoping that in the end they will heal. I know they will. I have to forget myself and focus what is at hand. Maybe doing this I can get over my fears of looking at blood.

Horrific weather

I think it is official that the only days I am going to have off of work are the day I posted as N/A. Today went by so fast. The weather scared the living daylights out of me. Thunderstorms and I do not mix well. When I was little I remember making myself fall asleep in the basement, the safest part of our house till the storm went away. I guess you can say I was a well rested individual. I helped my sister in cleaning her disastrous apartment. I was just thinking I could have gone outside and play in the rain.... Why didn't I do that?! Being at my sister's I had an intake of so much junk food it's enough to make me sick... again. I'll stick to my food that doesn't make me feel huge and tired. I thought Institute went well tonight. Alot of people from Leesburg Ward representing! I almost went to sleep while Brother Byron was giving the lesson. Oh my gosh, Scott!!! He is acting like an idiot. I do not think that he has one decent thing to say to anybody. I tried getting to know him, that wasn't a mistake.. the mistake was making him feel like what he was doing was ok, when really it only made him worse. I didn't think I was doing anything wrong I was just being his friend. Well I pulled the plug on that for a while to see where things go. Other than all of that I LOVED THE LESSON!

Not much

When I was on the register tonight at work, Alex was fooling around, acting a fool. He was saying that I have missed out on alot of great movies or just movies period, saying I have missed out on life. Without hesitation, without first processing what I was going to say. I told him," I would rather live life by experiencing it first hand than having someone else live it for me in a movie." The lady I was checking out she was stunned by what I had said. I like closing with Matt Mohrenne but the slackers that close when he does is a different story. Not much happened today, I just wanted to write on my blog. Waiting for a text! ;-)

34 hours AGAIN

I did allot of things that I needed to have gotten done a long time ago today, before I went to work. Getting to work I felt tired, I also felt excited, happy. Matt Mohrenne was the manager that closed. We stayed there till almost 11:00, what a day! Oh yeah from reliable sources ( Matt Warr) I heard that I was getting 34 hours AGAIN but I am only cashiering one day out of this coming schedule. I do not mind at all. Right when the store was closing I saw that Mike Mohrenne was bagging when he was suppose to be doing PM. I took over bagging so he could get back to cleaning. Jodi was the cashier, I had my Till taken while I was blocking so I was bagger lady. Anyways when I started bagging the job was almost done so I just put the groceries in the cart then I pushed the cart about 2 feet ahead so I can help take out the customer and so I could get the carts off the lot. Helping this customer out I realized that this man was Luke's dad. We talked while I was helping him with his groceries. The only reason I knew it was him right away because Luke looks JUST like him. That may be a good thing. Ha ha! I finally had my bagel that I have been craving for the past month with Whipped Philadelphia Cheese!!!!

What a day!

Waking up this morning, I was tired. I then realized that Luke was coming to church with me today. I was excited! Sister Howell's class today in the second hour was amazing. Last time I was in Gospel Doctrine there were some very interesting comments that were made by some of the investigators. Sister Howell's class is an investigator class. I am glad that some people have questions about the church/gospel, it shows that they are interested. When going to church I could tell that Luke was really nervous. I can tell what he may be feeling or thinking just by his reactions, in some ways since he and I are so much alike I kind of know him. I'm not saying that he is predictable, I just understand him. After the second hour we left for home. I was hoping that my dad was going to be there just so that Luke would be able to go to Priesthood. That's okay maybe... wait a minute his friend is coming down. I don't think that he would want to come, he may surprise me. Anyways we played basketball a little after he took me home. He showed me his foot and ankle. I was thinking that we have a delicate flower on our hands :-P. When he left :-( I had some lunch and around 3:00 I went to sleep. I woke up around 8:00, played with Bailey, and I am now writing on my blog. What a day! I loved every minute of it, now I am going to sleep. I am working from 9:30 to 7:00, yay.

By far the best

Starting the day off I went to work and I ended my day ending work. I worked a 12 hour shift, if you count my breaks. At the end of the day AFTER WORK the usual people went to Ramshackles (Colton, Matt, Judah, Justin, Luke, and I). We had sooo much fun tonight going to Wal-Mart and hanging out in Judah's car. Matt and I tangoed. He texts me saying "I like turtles" and I replied back saying "Well guess what I don't :-P". That is how our little spiff began. The best part of that evening when Luke and I were going home. Sitting outside my house were talking and out of nowhere he was puling something from his jacket, I think that's what it was. What he showed me was so beautiful! He had shown me a little wooden statue of a seahorse. He was asking me if it was something that I would put up on my shelf. I told him "Of course." He said that it was for me, that he got it for me. This night by far was the best for he and I.

To and from

I finally have figured out the reason why I hated it when people would say "That's life" or "That is the way things are". It is an answer for those that have given up. My thoughts lead to action, like some. When others give up I feel like they are not self-motivated or they feel defeated. Now i know the reason behind these responses, I will give one of my own as well. DON'T GIVE UP, NEVER LET ANYTHING GET YOU DOWN!.... I was thinking all of this on the way to and from getting Nana from school. Another thought I had was: Why would I wanna be when I could be me? Think about it. ;-)... Another thought I had was at Institute. Out of nowhere this came to my mind "Men are cowards and women are desperate". I rephrased that sentence into: Men are cowards because women are desperate. Another phrase was: Women are desperate because men are cowards. That sentence goes both ways, like there is two sides to a story. Everyone has their opinion and their own point of view.

The Jamaican Cow

Making the poster today for our store (store number 815) was really fun. I call my masterpiece "The Jamaican Cow". My color scheme was green, black, and yellow, and the design for the board looked like a cow print, ugh. It looks OK, I guess. I got home around 2:00. When I got home I went through some of my stacks of paper. I saw a poem that I wrote a long time ago. I called it "Fallen". "Enduring life's mystery, repeating past history. Walking through trials we cannot overcome, taking in what we have lost and won. Regretting what we have done, feeling like we are the only one. Living to much out of light, knowing you can never win the fight. Where is the rise after the fall? We seem weak and act small. Where is the love that strikes the heart? feeling like we are falling apart." Now I am tired! I think I want to go to bed, like right now. ;-) I think I will.

Yesterday and today

I seem to be writing about the day before instead of today. Yesterday I woke up at 7:00, with only having 5 hours of sleep, I didn't mind ;-). I went to work thinking I was going to work from 8:30 to 3:30, but Tiffany saw that I had put in a time away form for Kastin's wedding. She felt bad missing it, so she asked Nici to see if she could take over the rest of my hours that I worked that day just so that I could help my dad with the food for the wedding. I was sent home at 1:30, and at the end of the day Luke told me that he came in around 2:30 with Rob. I was then wishing I would of just finished my hours that I had intended on working. The wedding started at 7:00, it was GREAT, I am glad I went. I figured out that most of the people that attend a wedding are single, go figure. I got to dance with a guy named Logan, and a few other crazy girls. When I got home around 12:00 Luke came over and we walked around for a bit talking, then we decided it was to cold, so we sat in his car for the rest of the time. Sadly we were only able to talk for a little bit, till 1:30... Now today I am going to work @ 5:00 and working till close which is 10:00. I am so excited for this Friday when we get to go to Ramshackles. Last weeks night out was an adventure. Tomorrow I am going to go to the Lake Square Mall Publix to decorate our poster for all the associates that have worked at Publix for 5+ years. I am really nervous, I hope I do not screw it up!

Best two years of your life!

Two missionaries returned form their mission about a week ago. They had the opportunity to talk in Sacrament. The first talk given was by Rex Wilson. These are my notes I took while listening, you know its not every day we get a return missionary, so full of the Gospel. His talk was on how we can lose our lives for the Lord. Matthew 16:6. Lose our self completely, forget our troubles and serve the Lord. How to lose yourself: 1) Obedience 2) Diligence. Small things should never be ignored. Is our heart perfect towards God? How can we perfect ourselves? When God gives us an assignment we must obey! Can we be found with a perfect heart? Can others see a difference in us on a day to day basis? Are we giving our lives to the Savior? Change provides joy. Salvation is not a cheap experience, it does not come easy. He loves us, that is why He gave us hard things to do.... Our next talk was given by our other return missionary Blake Russ. His talk was on Adversity, here are my notes from his talk: Adversity comes to all of us, no matter what your status is here on Earth. How are we going to deal with adversity? It can either bring us closer to the Lord or it can lead us away. We are happy when we follow the Gospel righteously. Our greatest adversity is when their is contention in the home. We must sacrifice... After he was done with his talk he bore his testimony in Spanish, it was beautiful beyond description... When they were finished with their talks I didn't want sacrament to end, I felt peaceful. After Sacrament it was the same, crazy and hectic. For the past few weeks I have been feeling down. I knew that I went through my hardships for a reason. That Sunday I was so full of the Spirit. Others were feeling down, and out of place, confused, and what not. At the end of the day I gave them all a hug and told them that everything is OK, and that we are going through these trials for a reason. We will become stronger in the end.