All I want is for him to be happy!

I feel like I keep on disappointing him. I want to make him happy! i do not want him to rely on others for the happiness and joy that I should be giving him. I feel like I am failing him as a wife, a friend. Whenever we get into a fight or a little tid starts i forgive him that very second. After the fact of me forgiving him is me trying to get over it, trying to calm down. He thinks I am mad at him or I "just want to be quiet". When I am quiet at times it is usually because I have no idea what to say or I am scared shit less and I do not want to say anything else that can ruin the situation even more than what it already is. I am merely trying to clear my head and rid myself of all things that I am thinking that can hurt me in the run. It doesn't matter anyway. I feel like an idiot! ALL I WANT IS FOR LUKE TO BE HAPPY. Today is our two month anniversary, I am making it a shitty one too. I just wish he could believe me sometimes. I feel like a liar, a moron, when he says that he doesn't believe me. In the end whatever the fight was I don't give a damn about! Like I KEEP on saying I only want him to be happy.... I love him so much.. I just want to scream it to the world and hope everyone from every corner, ditch, and trail can hear me. Just please forgive me.... PLEASE....