I babysat today :l

I babysat today it was okay but it could of been better. Oh the kids who I babysat today was the Lawton's, marcella thinks that it is okay to hit adults, she is saying please, thank you, and she also like to share, but the real problem is when she is around connor her younger brother she almost literally killed one time on my watch and I was freaking out. Here the story is I was in the living room with them and we were all watching cartoons and all of a sudden connor started crying well at that time in his life he will want to be picked up, but I didnt stupid mistake. A while into his crying and all of a sudden I heard a change of tone in his cry, Marcela had Connor's face barried into the ground with a blanket on his head with no air passages for him to breath. I freaked out like crazy Marcela went into the highchair by herself for a while. My philosophy is, is that if you act like a baby I will treat you like a baby, she is a bout to turn 4 I put her in Connor's highchair when she is bad and I dont talk to her until she is ready to apoligize or accept what she did is wrong. Yeah I just got home, the time is 7:58 p.m. and I am exhausted like crazy I may just go to sleep, Well I'll talk to you later ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!

P.S. Isn't this old pics of my Brianna Xander Anabella so cute I miss them so much (I wish I could fly over water)

Bailey is being a butt!!

Bailey is being a butt first of all we went to seminary this morning and he had all the time in the world to go to the bathroom. Oh no he thought he would wait and take a crap in the house, the house still stinks. We walked around the lake he did a drop here and a drop there of peeing, so I was just sick of it it was hot and I didnt feel like sitting in the hot sun just to let him feel more dominate in teritory. So He pretty much was gagged the whole way home. Now Emily is lecturing me on life in general shes a butt too. She thinks she's not, butt she is, get it butt she is. Any way I'm here about to get done and finish my school work ......... Oh by the way HOMESCHOOLERS RULE! ALOHA, ADIOS, BOOD BYE!

Today was a bit better!

Today was a bit better my mom wasnt being as snooty as yesterday. Bailey I think is dehidrated so I've been forcing him to drink, and I gave him a tum it works for me why not for him? Today I colored this picture that i was meaning to color yesterday but I didnt. Oh my gosh my mom just came in and just started getting up in my face saying thats not important, really if this is helping with my stressed anger of couse it is much more important to me than anything else put together. I just wish she would have just one nice thing to say to me when she speaks to me of course she doesnt want to let her guard down. Cause anything she says to me it is anger sometimes I wish I could just jump off the balcony but I cant cause my retarded parents are just going to be putting back on that stupid pill again if they knew that I was thinking that, oh the thing is it doesnt seem like they for me much at all cause when something in my life comes up wrong the only way I can get the help that I need is if we are in a huge crowd so everyone can see who she really is. People think that my parents are nice they think they are concerned for our well being what ever like they would care an inch, of how I feel in any way. The only time that they would ever care is if I did something for them like the dishes. Thats the only time they are nice to me stupid isnt it. well I got to go to this life that I call hell. ALOHA, ADIOS, BOOD BYE!

Today was church :)

Today was church, we had to watch General Conference of cource on the TV. Sadly for me I fell asleep in just the first few minutes, I feel stupid. I remember that I heard someone say a long time ago was that if you judge someone you will be accounted for the same thing that you judge. Scary huh! SO DONT JUDGE SOMEONE EVER! Well when I woke up I got into the shower as my dog sits on the toilet sleeping. Then I gave him a bath, isnt that stupid. Once I was done I watched Mariposa my little sister Sarah's movie it was okay, exept for in this Barbie movie the prince had an accent and it wasnt a good one either, it kind of freaked me out. Then we watched General Conference, after that was over, we then watched the Young Women broadcast I think thats what it was? Now I am just sitting in this chair watching my life go before my eyes. Oh yeah never mind I can draw or color, I like to color better, the work is already done all you have to do is make it pop. Or in other words come to life. MWAHAHAHA! Oh my goodness my mom is being a major pain today all what she does is just nagg me about my faults that I have in life. Today she was angrilly telling me you should let your sister pet bailey , my mom is something else. First of all Sarah is sick hacking up, and just imagine bailey getting that, my mom thinks bailey wont get it. He is already pucking whatever up and she wants sarah to pet him. When he throws up afterward he gaggs then immediatley right after he trys to inhales for air very deeply. And he does that back and forth on and off. My mom thinks she knows everything and she may tell you that I think that I know everything, the thing is, is that I am trying to, the only way I can know things is if I can experiment with them, put them to action, plus she may be jealous that I may know alot more than she does he he. Well I g2g ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!

p.s. This is my second fav. Anne Geddes pictures! (plum pudding)

My family and I :(

My family and I went to go clean the church today, it was okay I got to clean the chalk boards booyah! My mom was arguing with me today and of all places the church how stupid is that just because sh is getting in her old days doesnt mean that she has to be pure evil :(. Today Ligaya is helping me with my prom dress for church, we are also going to enter ourselves in this contest for Jo-Anns. We have to make a prom outfit, and all the materials we made it with thay had to come from Jo-Ann Fabrics, the winner gets $1,000 Ligaya are splitting it 50/50, a sewing machine she is getting that, and I guess a manaqune she is also getting that. The thing is I designed it, and she is sewing it doesnt that seem fair, YES! Once I got home from the church clean up I have never seen Bailey get so excited to get out of his kennel. It was cute though.Well got to go my dad is being a butt. ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!

Right Now!

Right now I feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster ride right now, dont know why but I am. My abnormal parents are acting stupid as always. I feel like they will never understand how I feel and why I feel this way. Honestly my parents are not really helping right now I just got of these stupid pills that I have been on for over half a year, and they think that I am just going to magically go back to the way I was YEAH RIGHT. I think the only person that really understands me is my grandma, and she wants her life to end weird huh! I just wish that someone out there will understand me, and not talk about me behind my back. The only things that I can do to get away from this so called life is to do the thing that i like to do (MY INTERESTS). Well I got to go or my parents will try to find a way to get me in trouble or start a fight. ALOHA, ADIOS, GOOD BYE!