I love you!

Today has had it's ups and downs, mostly down, but where would I be without them. Today there was a disagreement with Luke and I, something stupid that got to be over the top retarded because it just kept on going. Today at work I couldn't stop thinking about Luke, and the fight. I just wanted to say to him right at that moment, "I want this to be over, I love you soo much that words cannot describe, and all what we are really doing is hurting each other." But he was at school and I was at work. Later on Luke came to start his shift. I felt so sad because I knew he was. During the end of work I called my mom to come pick me up so I wouldn't have to take the car and go back to Publix just to pick him up and waste gas. While I was trying to do that I opened my phone to see that Luke had left me four pages of a text saying that he doesn't know what I am thinking because I do not tell him, that he loves me, and how much he is saddened to see me distressed. I want to tell him EVERYTHING it is just that if I tell him what I am thinking, I do not want him to get anymore angry. I just figure if I stay quiet things will subside and everything will be alright. And most of the time I do not know what to say, and I do not want to say anything stupid and screw everything up. Which makes me depressed is knowing that Luke is thinking that he is at fault for everything when really it takes to people to tango. Luke, it is not your fault, I love you more than anything else in this world, I would give everything I have just to make you happy. I want you to know that I will always take your side and be by your side. Love you always and forever and ever.