Mixed Range

Today I was having a mixed range of emotions and thoughts, like on how people judge others and how I need to improve myself in that area, and how I am trying to get everything situated so Nico can come down and I can start college in the Spring taking correspondence. My family has pushed me in the corner one to many times and I am starting to really see the marks from it all, I am getting depressed, I am mad all the time, I am questioning every single thing I do, more like criticizing myself. I just cannot seem to find a solid foundation for anything I want right now. I know my family in their past have screwed up their lives, because they finally told me, but it doesn't mean that I will make the same mistakes. I have grown from my own to realize the right and wrong for almost every outcome. Working,being with Nico, and the church seem to be the only things that make me happy right now, sadly being home isn't one of them. I want to live my own life, but I cant do that when someone is living it for me. ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!