Held back

I finally tonight set up my Publix 401k (retirement) plan with my dad's help, I couldn't understand what all of that stuff meant. I should see on my next pay stub, or on the Internet that it should have something in it. My parents wanted us to have family quality time tonight oh my goodness that was interesting. All what we did was watch a movie, but really you can't do much of anything on a Sunday. I am working tomorrow 2:00 - 10:00. I have not closed in forever, so this is going to be interesting. When I was working Satuday last week it was so hot and I was tired and my eyes started to throb from the sunlight. My vision has been a bit off lately so I am going to see what I can do to protect my eyes at work, because people I have helped out have said that people in their families have serious damage to their eyes because of exposure to the sun, and now they said that they are almost blind so now they have to wear a hat and sunglasses just to protect what vision they have left right before they go blind. Church was fun I have finally been able to see my friends from my previous ward and other wards. I dont get it I feel like a complete stranger around them, I dont know how they have changed how they react to certain things I use to know them like the back of my hand, but with the way that my vision has been going I atleast hope to remember what it looks like. It is just that people have changed and I dont know in what way because I am not with them. I met some people that I was very very close to but when I saw them again for the first time in forever we barely even spoke there was only a hi and nothing else. I want to get back into painting I have my multiple paint brushes in a cup right next to my laptop, sitting there as I am hoping to gain some inspiration. Sometimes I feel as if my parents dont trust me, they say they dont trust the things that may happen, that something may happen on accident but really I am never going to learn a flippin thing if they keep on holding me back. Right now I feel so slow because I am so behind in what I need to do, when I am ready to leave this place I wont look back because He has something planned for me and I want to make sure I have nothing restraining me. I spent last night with Kattie and Jeremy at their apartment. All I can say is that, that night was very interesting they were asking me questions and I was answering them and they were answering mine. After all these years I am able to really know who my older siblings were and are today. All I can say is that I hope I can be an example to them maybe not but you will never know. I have to go Nico is texting me. :P ALOHA, ADIOS, & BYE!